I want a steamship next time! January 29, 2011
Posted by J R in My thoughts; my say..add a comment
Just got back home from a mini cny steamboat celebration with the old gang. Of a la carte spam, chocolate madness, strawberries overload, ice cream delight and crispy bacon prawns that kept disappearing magically into you-know-who’s stomach…
Life can be so simple and satisfying sometimes. And I discovered something more about myself – think I really like to surprise people.
Well, today also marks the unofficial end of the first week of school that has come and gone by so quickly, or not. This sem is going to start off a little differently, with a mod that deals almost entirely with speech and presentations, astronomy elective that could really cause me to see the stars, but which I find I am taking a liking to perhaps due to its broadness and intellectuality although it could prove to be challenging because it kind of feels like a combination of science, geography and history… or maybe I’m just excited about the “freshness” of it, abt something that is refreshingly different from the mods I’m currently pursuing… wow just realized my sentences can be really long.
Oh yeah and of course there is the somewhat important specialization talk held this week and the next. The one this week wasn’t as informative as I would have expected it to be and it didn’t seem like it’ll help me much to make meaningful choices come later part of the sem. The only thing I observed is how hyped up people get at the idea of money – prospectful salaries etc. It’s the popular “go where the grass is greener” mindset, go into lucrative fields if you can. Maybe “do what you love” kind of becomes secondary now, or rather people seek to find a wayward reasoning to reconcile that idea to make themselves feel better while making sure it sounds realistic – love the money because it’ll make your life much easier, and you might find yourself much happier, so do what will bring you good money, like it or not. Or maybe it’s because there’re no directions in life, so buy yourself some security, enter the field that possibly offers you the most financial rewards, at least you can assure yourself that you can earn sufficient bread and milk to tide you through the rest of your life, until the so-called direction comes and you decided to move on from there, or even if it doesn’t, you might just be happy and satisfied to live it the way it might be. Lucky you if you’re competent enough and money and your passion actually goes hand in hand.
I think I really need to start getting used to the solitude in school. Come next year, it’ll be almost certain that I’ll be taking a separate path from the old gang who is still with me. Accountants-to-be will move on to to be their accountants-to-be and I’ll be treading on my biz path with the forthcoming specialization machine that will further compel me to bid farewell to the remaining comrades I have. So perhaps this sem is a good start to prepare me for what may be coming, considering I am somewhat floating around in my classes already. On a brighter note, maybe this will open up more opportunities for me to meet new people (provided I open myself up first), and well at the very least, there are always dinner/supper opportunities with the old gang.
I don’t know if I’m feeling alone more than I should necessary feel. Silly me.
What a time to let my thoughts run again…
Sometimes you hear things that could make your heart sink a little. Maybe we all want to be indispensable, and on knowing we can’t be, we feel sad. But would you want anybody to be indispensable to you? If nobody is, maybe you wouldn’t feel sad over their loss. Then again, if we’re all detached from one another, where is the love?
What utter rubbish am I uttering again…
I can be simple if I want to. And I’m glad I can choose to make myself happy most of the other times other than this.
Now it’s time for rest.
